1. |
After All This Time
03:49
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And when you said you were through
With howling at the moon
I knew it wasn't true
I knew you'd end up back
On that same old track
You could never change your tune
You could never change your act
And after all this time
You could stall the beat of my heart
And after all this time
If it's only you that I want
It was the wrong time and place
But you stayed there just in case
In case everything changed
When you mustered up the strength
To keep me at arm's length
You were sowing the seeds of regret
You were spitting in the face of death
And after all this time
You could stall the beat of my heart
And after all this time
If it's only you that I want
The tears come easy now
That I've clawed my way back out
Of the hell I tripped into
Yes the years have done their work
Hearing faint and vision blurred
Still I recognize you
Still your love feels new
And after all this time
You could stall the beat of my heart
And after all this time
If it's only you that I want
And after all this time
You could stall the beat of my heart
And after all this time
If it's only you that I want
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2. |
Not Saying Sorry
03:42
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I know why you feel the way that you do
We've shared a ceiling and we've worn each other's shoes
You know you've done nothing wrong but you should
Cause it's killing me to be leaving someone so damn good
But I'm not saying sorry
When I've got nothing to be sorry for
I won't be held responsible
For the pain in your eyes when I walk out the door
When I met you you were too cool for school
I was unusual but you couldn't have called me cruel
We were a pair of overconfident lovers
Saying no matter what we would always come back to each other
But it didn't work out that way, we drifted onto different paths
Can't you see that to stay with me would be holding yourself back
So I'm not saying sorry
For giving you the room you need to grow
I think deep down you want that
And I'm gonna prove my love by letting go
You've been mine and I've been yours long enough
We'll sign the paperwork, we'll separate our stuff
Then you and I will live our lives far apart
And you will find love that patches the holes in your heart
And I will change into my next self cavalier and unforgiven
Part of me might always wonder if I made the right decision
But I'm not saying sorry
Doesn't love mean I never have to
I must keep moving onward
I can't be looking over my shoulder at you
I'm not saying sorry
For the way you choose to react to the steps I take
Don't tell me it's my fault
That you put your heart in my hands when you knew it could break
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3. |
Are You Serious
03:23
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I'm having trouble telling if our love is real
The way it's supposed to be
I am kissing you but it doesn't feel
Like you're kissing me
We're no strangers darling, we've been going steady
But there's this look in your eyes
Did you fall out of love and just forget to tell me
You're so silly sometimes
Are you serious about this
Cause I'm not young anymore
When things get tough will you persist
Cause if not there's the door
You keep canceling dates but not til the last minute
Your homework's tying you down
I'm a patient guy but even I have my limits
I can't keep waiting around
I try and tell myself that you're just really busy
And it'll be better someday
But deep down I think I know that you don't even miss me
And I'm too old for this game
Are you serious about me
Or am I just one of your options
Will I be your one and only
Or is your heart up for auction
It's a shame to see you go, we sure have had our moments
But when a dog's had her day
She's gotta be put down, darling you should've known this
Would have to end up this way
You don't seem too broke up, you barely seem affected
You're probably doing just fine
I guess I don't know what else I should have expected
You were never the sentimental kind
Are you serious about anything
Or do my words go right through you
Will you direct your own destiny
Or will life just happen to you
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4. |
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Twenty-two and just out of college
Paying rent on an apartment where I didn't eat or sleep
Cause I was sleeping with you every afternoon
And staying up all night over a tray of crab rangoons
And yeah the sex was great
But it was just one part of the heaven that was our love
The sex was great
But for some reason I keep thinking of
Chinese food and Buffy the Vampire Slayer
The core ingredients of our love affair
It got complicated but when you peel back all the layers
It was all about Chinese food and Buffy the Vampire Slayer
What's my line and General Tso's chicken
Splitting a sampler platter, rolling our eyes at this week's villain
Then came lo mein and the dawn that nobody acknowledged
The hours never mattered cause there was a deep spell upon us
I thought I could do it alone
But it only left me with a sick sensation inside
I went it alone
Just so God would know I tried
Chinese food and Buffy the Vampire Slayer
And both of those things were better when you were there
It didn't work out because I thought I was some kind of player
Now I'm dwelling on Chinese food and Buffy the Vampire Slayer
And just like Buffy you were strong and feminine too
And just like Angel I got jealous every time that Spike was in view
And just like Xander and Willow you believed in me despite my issues
And just like sweet and sour sauce you were sweet but not without some attitude
And just like the first season you were hard to get into
And just like a broken heart you were hard to get into
And just like the music industry you were hard to get into
And I lived that dream, I was there
Yeah you loved me but I didn't care
I let you go, how did I dare
All I had to do was let that dream continue
Seven years and I'm still thinking about you
Time has weathered my skin but never my memory
Other women have come and gone like the seasons
Still I long for a chance to love you once more with feeling
Yeah the sex was great
I guess I'm paying the price for those moments of true happiness
The sex was great
Especially when afterward we'd order a plate
Of Chinese food and watch Buffy the Vampire Slayer
No dinner and a movie combo compares
With our show on TV and a cookie to be our soothsayer
I hope my fortune tells of Chinese food and Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Oh God oh Chinese food and Buffy the Vampire Slayer
And the girl I loved running her fingers through my hair
I had some demons and unfortunately they betrayed her
But I'll never forget Chinese food and Buffy the Vampire Slayer
As long as I live
Chinese food and Buffy the Vampire Slayer
The simple pleasures of life that were made to be shared
I wanna go back but God doesn't grant that kind of prayer
So I'll just dream about Chinese food and Buffy the Vampire Slayer
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5. |
Hindsight
04:00
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I don't have twenty-twenty vision
There are some things I can't see
I can't make out the details
Until they're right up close to me
And they're usually only there for a moment
Til they fly right by and leave me behind
Yeah hindsight is my eyesight
And it's no better than being blind
The color of the leaves in summer
I can't say I really noticed
I vaguely remember them
Over your shoulder as we kissed
But now I pore over every line
As I push them into piles on the ground
Yeah hindsight takes up a lot of my time
Which I have more of now that you're not around
Opportunity knocked
One morning while I slept in
I threw some ratty clothes on
But it was far away by then
I ran to the street looking every direction
Calling for you in a desperate trance
Yeah hindsight plays tricks on my mind
Making me think I barely missed my chance
When two roads lay before you
Make your decision well
And afterward never question
What the other path may have held
Heed my words you who travel behind me
Do not do what I have done
Cause hindsight isn't gonna fix my life
But maybe I can warn someone
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6. |
I Was Just a Boy
04:02
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You sent me that letter after my book of poems that you bought finally came
Furious that none of the words on any of the pages was your name
Did I mean so little to you to not even deserve a mention
Your guilt trip was expert level, yeah you still know how to get my attention
I never hurt worse than dwelling on the many ways I did you wrong
I was a reckless youth with a hunger to destroy
You took all the romance out of being the subject of someone else's sad song
I was never worth your tears, I was just a boy
I visited your hometown, met your dog and your family
You said you might move to Vegas, I think you would've done anything for me
I was looking for a good time, you were looking for happily ever after
Maybe it's true what they say and girls just mature that much faster
But I knew all that going in and still went through with it
I strung you along, I led you on and treated you like a toy
I took you for granted cause I only wanted what I couldn't get
God forgive me, I was just a boy
I thought it better not to reply, I'd already put your heart through hell
I didn't talk to you for years but I hoped you were doing well
Now you've got a beautiful wife, I guess I should've seen that coming
After your piece-of-shit dad and your ex I was one in a long line of good-for-nothings
So I'm happy for you but I'm sorry too cause when you opened up your gate
To me and gave me every chance to fill your life with joy
When I had an opportunity to step up to the plate
When the time came to be a man I was just a boy
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7. |
Absolution
03:09
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Absolution come to me
Drown my sins in your sweet mercy
Absolution comfort me
Tell me I still will be deemed worthy
I've made mistakes small and large
I won't defend them, I am guilty as charged
But I have to believe that my soul can be saved
That I don't have to finish this digging of my grave
Absolution come to me
Drown my sins in your sweet mercy
Absolution comfort me
Tell me I still will be deemed worthy
Of a new beginning, a fresh restart
A peaceful mind and an open heart
I have changed for the better and this change will last
I will prove to the world that I am not my past
Absolution come to me
Drown my sins in your sweet mercy
Absolution comfort me
Tell me I still will be deemed worthy
Years of anguish over you
Years of regret and desperation too
Let me move on, let me walk in the light
Let me atone, let me make things right
Absolution come to me
Drown my sins in your sweet mercy
Absolution comfort me
Tell me I still will be deemed worthy
Absolution
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8. |
Never Loved a Woman
05:49
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Fourteen years old is too old to have your heart ripped out
Cause you'll always remember it
Cause by then you know how much it's gonna mean
How much it's gonna change forever
I was in a play
The critics gave me raves
But you said you saw right through me
You knew me too well to take me seriously
And that nearly drove me nuts
You were the only one who said that
What did you expect from me
What could I have done differently
Swimming at the YMCA
Gazing at you with your shirt off
And your tummy that looked so soft
Candy necklace hanging down your chest
Your hand is resting quite close to mine
Saying come on the water's fine
And now it's twenty years later
And I have had a girlfriend or a few
But I cry at night to my creator
Cause I've never loved a woman
Never loved a woman like I loved you
Staring contest with the devil himself
Did you know that he lives in my bathroom mirror
And I don't know who I can tell
Who would pull me out of hell
Who could help me face this fear
It's who I am inside
It's what I'm gonna be
For the rest of my life
Yours eternally
You trusted me with secrets
I never told a soul
So how's about you give me back the young man's heart you stole
You were walking home with the cute redhead
Who half the world had their eyes upon
But that wasn't where mine were drawn
Sleeping over at your best friend's house
We can stay up and watch TV
But we have to watch quietly
And in that town I am still welcome
But I wonder what they'd think if they knew
Sometimes I wanna call them all and tell them
That I've never loved a woman
Never loved a woman like I loved you
Oh honesty
You're gonna be the death of me
I could never approach you now
Cause what on earth would I say
The entire world around us changed
And it's not gonna slow back down
On the day you moved I was in denial
I chased your car til you were gone
That didn't take long
Nothing came of it
We didn't keep in touch
I do the best I can not to think about you much
But your name is on the tip of my tongue
The consonants just
Just light me up
Do you want me to spell it out
Whispering the words in each other's ears
Watching it in my memory
I am shocked at the intimacy
And I don't know much about life
But I can tell you something true
I could never take a wife
Cause I've never loved a woman
Never loved a woman like I loved you
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9. |
When You Were on the Way
02:58
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I was broken, I was distraught
I was alone in the world, at least that's what I thought
And I was sullen and I was sad
Cause I had lost the only girl I'd ever had
And suddenly I was Romeo writing her some poems
Saying I was sorry begging her to come home
I wish you could've seen it cause it seems crazy now
What was that all about
Me crying all day
When you were on the way
She said she loved me with all her heart
And I said I love you too, that's why we're never gonna part
And I believed it but I was wrong
Because part with me she did and it didn't take her long
But I was right about being in love, that's for sure
Yes I was madly in love but it wasn't with her
I had fallen for a fantasy I'd built in my mind
Romance made me blind
To the problems at play
When you were on the way
Now here in our house life is sublime
And once in a while my thoughts drift to earlier times
So I get out my old photographs
You know they used to make me cry, now they make me laugh
Cause I'm marveling at that miserable youth
If I could tell him about you he wouldn't think it was the truth
And if he makes me misty-eyed, darling please understand
He made me who I am
And what can I say
I didn't know you were on the way
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10. |
Still Fucking Up
04:08
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Now that you're living so far away
You may think of me and wonder if I've changed
I want you to rest assured
I'm the same as ever, never mind what you've heard
I'm still fucking up
Oh ho, against all odds
I have failed to learn anything
I'm still fucking up
Oh ho, still the asshole you used to know
With the lack of empathy
Some people are so untrustworthy
You can't depend on them cause you never know who they'll be
But I am constant, I am sound
You can count on me to always let you down
I'm still fucking up
Oh ho, don't you worry
I've got a lot more time to do more things wrong
I'm still fucking up
Oh ho, if you're waiting for me to make a mistake
Then it won't be long
And it's just like you always used to say
I'm a glutton for punishment and I like it that way
A junkie for sympathy, how your words made me cry
Cause I knew they were true, it wasn't like you to lie
So there you have it folks, that's my story
It may sound sad to you but imagine how it feels for me
It just goes to show you were on the right track
You dodged a bullet when you left and never looked back
Cause I'm still fucking up
To this very day
You can hear the self-pity and pain in my voice
I'm still fucking up
And every word I say
And every step I take is a terrible choice
I'm still fucking up
Still on my bullshit
A festering cesspool of sorrow and strife
I'm still fucking up
And I'm not gonna quit
I am dedicated to my destructive life
And it's wrong, yes I'm wrong
Still wrong after all of these years
I'm nothing but a hound a dog and a scoundrel
And a clown drowning in my own tears
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11. |
Last Minute
04:48
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Riley you're understanding
Riley you're sweet as pie
Riley you look me in the eye
Eye
Eye
Your suitor's not the fun kind
Let's leave him in the lurch
I'll tell you something you won't hear in church
Hear in church
Hear in church
I long to be the one you
Tell all your secrets to
I wanna be the light in you
You
You
You took such a long time coming home
I just wasn't the same those hours alone
Yeah it took such a long time calming down
I feel better now that you're around
You've got no business crying
At midnight New Year's Eve
I'll tell you something to believe
Believe
Believe
Out there the system's crashing
Out there the end is near
But you and I are laughing here
Here
Here
I hope where we are going
They have a scenic route
That's what my life was really all about
All about
All about
You took such a long time coming home
I just wasn't the same those hours alone
Yeah it took such a long time calming down
I feel better now that you're around
The world's gonna end now
Hope you had fun in it
I'll tell you something at the last minute
The last minute
The last minute
So Riley don't you worry
No Riley never doubt
You're what my world was really all about
All about
All about
I long to be the one you
Sing all your love songs to
I wanna be the love in you
You
You
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12. |
Meow
05:27
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The squirrels were racing through the trees
The birds were singing harmonies
So sweet
Cleaner than the morning dew
Fell on my window pane
A quiet rain
Every drop sky blue
I saw this all come true
As I was thinking of you
As I was thinking of you
I took a drop around the block
I had my Walkman on
As I passed by the duck pond
As I was thinking of you
I heard a song I hadn’t heard in many years
It fell new upon my ears
And for the first time its meaning was clear
I called you for a date
When we were young and too afraid to
Say what we yearned to say
I blame myself because I failed to
Stop time
I don’t wanna go to work yet
Stop time
I don’t wanna go to work yet
Stop time
I don’t wanna go to work yet
Stop time
I’m sleeping in my bed tonight
I haven’t been for seven days
Left my toothbrush at your place
If I get cavities
I’m blaming all those squirrels in the trees
And butterflies on the breeze
And my newfound taste for cheesy clichés
And bonehead stupid wordplay
These things I never say
To anybody but you
Bring out the parts of me that I hide
You’ve seen who I really am inside
I think I’m in way over my head
Stop time
I don’t wanna to go to work yet
I hope you remember how beautiful you are
Your body and your spirit and your mind
I hope you understand how deep I fell for you
How hard a person like you is to find
You should never hide your scars
You’ve got nothing to be ashamed of
I will treasure those parts of you
And the slow way they became love
Stop time
I don’t wanna go to work yet
Stop time
I don’t wanna go to work yet
Stop time
I don’t wanna go to work yet
Stop time
I’m not ready to go to work yet
Stop life
I don’t wanna go to work yet
Stop life
I don’t wanna go to work yet
Stop life
I’m not ready to shed this skin yet
Stop life
I don’t want to close these eyes
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Joey Hines Las Vegas, Nevada
Joey Hines is a Las Vegas-based singer-songwriter. Inspired by classic alternative & indie artists, as well as the unconventional perspectives of outsider musicians, Hines blends a knack for memorable melodies with an imaginative & heartfelt lyrical style. Listeners might be reminded of the unfiltered emotion of Daniel Johnston & the eloquent rhymes of The Magnetic Fields. ... more
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